有時候會討厭自己的醜陋到一種不覺得自己值得存在的程度。看到了不對的事情發生，想想做決定和行動的人們是如何冷血，再看到自己身上其實也有著同樣的機制，就感到很崩潰。回想每一次傷害愛自己的人，朋友、家人，堅決的認為完全不可原諒，又矛盾的很希望能得到原諒，而且終究還是會〈完全不應該的〉被原諒。一個人要付出多大的努力，才能對這個世界減少一點傷害，多大的努力看起來都不夠。也許尼采是對的，人生最幸福的狀態就是從來不要存在，這樣對自己和其他人事物都是最好的。可是偏偏也是這樣無窮境的目標，讓人生看似可以不斷前進，然後回到美好的死亡。
在沉睡之前，還有好多好多事要做。
Dear,
回覆刪除First,『love Taiwan』let yourself to become the only one (unique) then Taiwan will have independent chance.
Let love and peace around Taiwan, Face many things can not enthusiastic passion,
the intention to complete wanted afterwards then life must continue.
If you do not want to happen has also caused injury is the most important thing at the moment must take care of yourself.
Breathing is very important because of the existence of this world must have its significance.
Do not allow the devil to occupy the mind for too long - we love you so much.
Heart switched on the turn, to have the concept of the global village, a politician to make the world fall apart but we are happy to learn to adapt not to fall into panic as it is sometimes an illusion.
I am so scaring to hear that do you want to share with me at the e-mail -cmho@vghks,gov.tw
Homesick ! want to cry to cry! want to call it shouting !
Good sports! DEAR
GOD BLESS YOU
Dear dear Mom of Ben. Don't worry, I will always take good care of myself. Just that introspection sometimes hurts, but I believe feeling hurt is a part of realizing empathy. I will never refuse my friends even if they have different opinions. I think that this generation is learning and practicing living in the democratic world we are taught and imagined, though the reality is far from that. I hope that after they learned both their ideal and reality they will know what to do would be the best for Taiwan. I hope the society can give them sometime to figure out.
回覆刪除Thank you for supporting all the time! Wish you the best, too!